Diagnosed with depression/anxiety ...

hahninsik · Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 38

I’m majorly suffering from.... god knows. I give myself all these diseases. So now I think im just giving myself depersonalization and anxiety. It’s crazy. I just can’t decide.

All I know is, I don’t feel like myself. everything is like.. being a spectator., and I’m afraid of losing my mind. and im afraid of.. losing control.. having no future. And I think im just absorbing symptoms as I read them...

im starting cymbalta tonight... maybe it’ll work?

I guess I’ve been diagnosed with depression/anxiety.

But part of me thinks it’s just all in my head, and I should be strong enough to just escape it.

moon · Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 32

that’s part of the anxiety...the feeling that you don’t belong, that you are strange to everything and everyone else...Usually I wondered a lot about death to the point of reading books and becoming Atheist... you start questioning every single thing and worry just about everything that happens on your surroundings.

But look on the positive side, at least you know what the cause is, anxiety. Though I don’t think you're in depression from what you wrote. You are actually aware of what the causes are, and not many people realize that until they seek help. At least you are in a good start.

Depression is a secondary effect after a long term of feeling anxiety. you start crying, wondering about suicide, attempting suicide, not wanting to eat or eating more, not doing the things you used to do, etc. When I had that much anxiety I can tell you that I went through some of these things, symptoms that I might have had depression and therefore I considered myself depressed. but no one was 100% sure I was, and regardless because of so much negative thoughts I convinced myself that I was...and in fact I might had been since my doctors suspected.

Don’t burn your head wondering what you have or don’t have...I know is easy to say than to actually do it, but I’ve been there...don’t think about the fact that you have anxiety. I'm sure the medicine will help! Keep us updated and good luck! Anything you want to ask let us know and I’ll try to advice or help!

hahninsik · Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 38

thanks

It seems my anxiety/depression... my problem, at least, comes in stages... or phases. And in sections. I get 2 weeks of "normal" and then 3 weeks "feeling crappy"

and each time it’s a new feeling. Or sensation. The past few days have been this depersonalization... and it is by far the most annoying and confounding thing

this feeling of not being oneself.... of being detached... not doing what you are really doing, being a spectator to your own life...

anyone else have this?

woong · Joined: 05 Dec 2006 Posts: 32

You are not alone. I have the same thing - "normal" for a few weeks then I wake up in the depths of anxiety and depression symptoms. It's oftentimes triggered by stress or around my exam time.

You feel like you are going crazy. It's hard to explain. It's difficult to turn to friends/family. They do not understand - at least that is how I feel.

I feel alone.

I'm hoping to connect with like minded people here where I can find some solace.