My Relatives And My Depression

[chaekyu]

Hi all

I've just been on the phone with my relatives today, they're all wondering when I am going to go down to them and visit. The thing is, I would rather avoid this type of visit, not because I have anything against them, but because my relatives do not know about my depression. They treat my panic as a little problem that I haven’t overcome yet and they have no idea about my depression. I will have to go see them over the summer holidays for at least two weeks and I am wondering how I am going to cope with that.

They are all very talkative and friendly, which I can say I am too, but I am not the same as I used to be.
They all do very well at their jobs and in family life, of which I have nothing of what they have and therefore there is nothing to talk about between us.
All we discuss is how school is going and such, and then what?

How shall I manage two weeks of pretending to be nice and friendly when I cant really be touched by their happiness, when I just don’t see life the way they do?

Just a vent.

Thanks for reading